Monday, January 29, 2007
Given myself some time to really think about all those messages sent by my sweet lil old boyfriend yesterday, asking all kind of questions about me and hows my life has been... I was glad that he atleast show that he cares but on the other hand, questions after questions keep on running into my head.. Questions that i can hardly find any answers to everything... What exactly that i shouldve been doing right now? eeargh!
Anyway... people, just take your own sweet time to adjust your bag and leave me to board the train alone ok! And let everyone in that particular cabin smile at me.... Just me ok.... And after that just play chak-chak with me....
Sunday, January 28, 2007
~SATURDAY~
- Didnt go to the office = nice long sleep
- So much of my breakfast with my family = all out except for me
- Sing sing sing and sing for myself = no one to entaertain me
- Short NAP + rain = superb
- Kallang stadium (Singapore vs Malaysia) = excitement
- Screaming + shouting + clapping + banging = FUN + WORN OUT
- Supper = Nasi Lemak + Coke = Sssshiok!
- Early breakfast = Macdonald's hotcakes + ice milo = Yummy!
~SUNDAY~
- Didnt get to sleep = zombie look-a-like
- Quick shower and then out with the whole family = sloppy me
- East Coast for lunch = simply fabulous
- Geylang = where i stayed in the van to look after kids
- Tired = Home = as i cant dragged myself to join them for bowling
Friday, January 26, 2007
People, im pissed! Bear with all the vulgarities that you going to find in this post alright...
Suprisingly, that unfortunate mother fucking bitch stepped into this office with that mother fucking look, stomping all over the place as if its hers! It was damn fucking irritating ok!!!! Just her luck that im wearing a skirt right now ok or i will have already give her that flying kick of mine! hahahaa.....
Before she came in i was asked to REDO everything what she had done or rather changed the CS Online System that ive been doing all this while before her...She came in and told off me from my seat cause she need to use that blarddy computer of mine! What the fuck!!!! She have her VERY OWN DESK to do whatever shits she want to do ok!!! And now, why must it be mine?? Stooooopid kan!! Tell you people what, she really pushed me to the limit where i can tolerate no more ok... Liyana dragged me to her desk in order not to see me venting my anger all around... So ya.. Let that fatty asshole had the hot seat where she saw my workpiece and she argued with me... Though we are like 8 or 9 years apart and i used to look up at her as my elder but now,this point of time, she was just as small as the crockroach that i saw behind that big cargo outside my window... Argue and argue till that stooopid manager arrives to the scene...And call both of us to the GMO... She walked in and THROW the confidential documents that she stooopidly brought home at Suzanne, who happened to be the receptionist, and told her off that she's quiting... My god!! I was shocked ok... And malu to have that kind of bitch as my (unfortunately) cousin! And guess what, i also dont know why but this is wat i said to her.. "you dont have to quit, cause uve been fired..." ... Hahahaha.. Out of point kan... As if she works for me... But who cares....Step into my line and you will have to bear with it...!
So.. Yesh! OUT SHE GO.... But that mother fucking bitch left all the shits to me before i can even make her go thinner! Shit her! Now ive got to settle everything ON MY OWN... Anyway, i know i can do it... So whatever la! All i know, right now, IM PISSED!!!!!! eeeargh!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Thank God, she wasnt here at this very moment ok... Or else i will definitely throw all this blarddy documents straight to her face...! Fancy leaving all these shits to me without informing or updating me all the details and just went on leave...! Now tell me what am i suppose to do? Ive set all the formats and all and told her not to change anything so we can atleast share the tasks... Stoopid fellow, just stepped into this department, now shes acting like a big shot just like her size... I dont care... For all i know, im not going to settle all this shits for her just because (unfortunately) shes a cousin of mine.... And for sure, before i leave this place, im going to leave all kinds of shits JUST FOR HER ok! Though im just few months old in this pathetic company, ATLEAST, i know more than she does ok...Tell her, TRY ME ok!
And now, this heart of mine keep on giving me problems... Its tough ok... REAL TOUGH...All those stress, the irregular heartbeat and all, is simply killing me day by day... Stooopid doctors cause they cant even identify that sickening illness that ive been suffering... Wait till im dead, after the postmortem, only then can tell the cause of my death...! Even that, they are unable to tell me cause for goodness sake, im already DEAD....! Can i dig their heads for their brains and feed the rats?? Stooooooooopid them..!
Why life hasnt be fair to me eh? Anybody have the answers for it? For the matters of love, health and whatever shits, i will always be at the losing end...! eeargh!
Apart from my beloved ones, can i choose to end my life now than to suffer these unwanted pains? Please....
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
SOCCER SOCCER SOCCER and more SOCCER!! JUST GO KICK THE BALL OK!!
I just DONT UNDERSTAND these people, whom for no reason, have this kind of changing attitudes... What more if you, had done NOTHING wrong... At this point of time you can see this someone behaving so sweet, caring and whatsoever good words that i can use to describe that sort of behaviour BUT within the split second, he can give you that fucked-up attitude.... WEIRD isnt it??? Just a phone call from you, with GOOD INTENTIONS at the back of your mind, to ask about that someone's well being, BUT end up, you get this sickening response from that ungrateful fellow... Wake up and get yourself a life please! Accept me and treat me like a FRIEND, or, just tell me straight to my face that you are GENUINELY NOT INTERESTED... Sicked and tired of that screwed-up attitude of yours, keep on saying "WE COULD ATLEAST BE FRIENDS" but the real fact is that you cant bring yourself to do it.... Three words, DONT BE FAKE!
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Hello... Hadnt been home for the past two days so thats the reason why i hadnt been updating this blog of mine... Or maybe theres too much to write? i dont know... Anyways, this is MY blog so people, its either you read it or you dont alright.. And as for the readers or rather the unexpected readers, i would greatly appreciate if you people try to atleast stop assuming on every details that had been posted in every single post of mine... Its mainly about the story of my life, what happened, whats happening and whats going to happen next... So yarh, if you people got any doubts in mind, please feel free to ask me for clarification ok? ok!
~Monday - Friday~
Weekdays had been such a bore cause all i did was get myself beautifully dressed for work and straight back home after that... Hahaha... I have been dragging myself to the office every morning with these thoughts at the back of my mind that this shits is going to end real soon...And imagine, it was from that very Monday to Friday ok!
~Saturday~
But the Saturday was not bad afterall... Didnt go for work just for the sake of the soccer-play with a group of friends as early as 8am.. Went for a field at Commonwealth but somehow after we found ourselves running all over the field like clowns, we decided to go for street soccer... And after which i dragged myself down to Bedok to meet my craziest-yet-lovable friend of mine, DINAH MARINAH before we headed to East Coast Park for a private heart-to-heart session... With the breeze plus the waves and the sun, it was simply a Superb Saturday ok! And and and... I know what im going to tell you people now, you are not going to believe me... i saw a crab that walked straight! REALLY! Dee was also there and she saw it too.... Ok... Ive tried convincing someone about what i saw but somehow as i expected, it doesnt work... So no point if i were to really spent my time convincing the rest of you right? But still, i saw it! Anyway, back to main story, after ECP, went to the Parkway Parade which i have never been to, to have a late lunch or early dinner also i dont know... And straight back to Along's place with the long bus ride...*i simply loves bus rides* And why Along's place? Ouh... Cause we had our family gathering there and im loving it ok!
~Sunday~
Woke up at 11 in the morning... To find myself something to eat and to "look after" Along's property as they went out to Geylang with Mom and Aunties... But i ended up falling asleep again till 5 plus in the afternoon... It has been such along time since the last time i really had that kind of sleep ok! But now my back is aching like hell maybe because of the aircon or what also i dont know la... Or maybe after the long hours of lying down on the bed...
~Monday~
Hadnt been to work... Reason being, i woke up late and im so not into dressing up when im already late... So before i really went to work with that stoopid look, might as well i continue my sleep.. But somehow this stomach of mine started to make all kinds of music so instead of i cooked for myself, id rather help Mom at her workplace... And there i go...
As for today's, i'll update you people some other day ok? ok!
And phuck to this irregular heartbeat of mine, its killing me day by day.....!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
All those late-night-nonsensical conversations which filled with unbelievable stories, unlimited laughters, both crazy and lame jokes and even unnecessary attitudes finally turned out to be a late-night-serious conversations afterall.....! Complicated issues that somehow we knew that it shouldn't be brought up at any point of time, in any conversations, eventually reached to its peak where we had to clarify and thanked God, we still manage to get ourselves into a safe zone.... One thing will somehow lead to another... So yeah... Risks is everywhere... It either you take it or leave it..
By the way, the silence turns to awkward but now, it was blown away... Just like that... I need to clear my mind off the pain... I am strong because i had to... I can't continue to hate and i can't continue to be depressed... Another words, i have to be alive once again... I can pull this off and for sure, YES I CAN!
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Ok peeps... With my manager around, i have already nothing much to do, now imagine, shes gone...I really have nothing to do la ok! Chatting, singing, messaging and game-ing is all what i do here, at work... So tell me how does it sounds? Having my great time? Hell NO ok! Im ouh-so bored la.... Wish i could just grab my things and get out of this sit of mine and head back home to enjoy my date with my BED! Yeah... I WISHED!
Anyway... Any idea how does it feels like when you realised that you have got your own self STUCKED into a situation where you will have to make a decision for yourself, your future... A situation where you might have to decide whether to be just friend or more than a friend with that someone whom you know you LOVE! What more if it does NOT only involving just you and that someone, BUT also your beloved family... Ouh my... I simply HATE all these decision-making ok! phfffft!
Ouh well, all the best to me...!
Things that have to be done/owned:
- night at the museum
school for scoundrelstopshop jacketzicoo wristwatchstress-freenew cellphone line- on-site report
- powerpoint presentation
- new hair cut
- a design clothing on Cikya's wedding
- heels
Errrr.... Theres more to come! *winks*
Sunday, January 14, 2007
How was the birthday celebration? Ok... It was beautifully spent for School for Scoundrels, the beach and dinner... Everything went smoothly and great until i reached home and found myself into this guilt...
Here the story goes... Went out as usual, this time, without having any negatives thoughts at the back of my mind and im enjoying every moment of it... Only when i reached Cik Im's place at ard 12 midnight, and i know its time for me to check my cellphone for any birthday wishes.. Anyways, it was so damn weird as i dont receive any messages when im out or maybe i just dont feel the vibration or hear any sound from my cellphone... So, another words, my cellphone ROSAK ok!!!! Got it? So, i got my card, changed into my sis's phone and still i dont receive anything except for a call from Dee... Ok.. So got it changed back and got one of my uncles to "repair" that stooopid phone of mine, and ONLY THEN i managed to retrieve all the messages and missed calls.. So sorry peeps for the late replies and late thanks for all your best wishes...
As for my sweet lil old boyfriend, im so sorry that you cant get through me on time... I swear it was really an unintentional thingy... Its nothing of that sort of what you're thinking... But to get a best wishes from you, it is more than what i could ever ask for... Once again, thanks...
And last but not least,
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, NANA..............
Friday, January 12, 2007
Been sleeping the whole day like nobody's business... Feeling soo sick cause im down with a flu, bad cough and what more also i dont know.. Anyway young man, for sure, the two tubs of Ben & Jerry's is not the cause of it and im NOT a weak person ok! *winks*
Ermm... Waiting for a call or a msg from this young man to update me with his bad or good news about his match.. *better be a good one ok, smell you!* Haha.. So much of wanting to go there and give the moral support... Ouh well.. Next time ok? Ok!
Two more days, pooof, i'll be a year older... And that makes me errr.. 20 years old? Ouh god... Dont make that sound so awful please.. And by the way, isnt that the same digit on that someone's jersey? *roll eyes* Haha! Anyway, got a simple lecture from dearest Mom.. And i guess i shall have to start with the "purpose of living" any sooner cause Mom will love me more for that... Right Mom? Right!
Ok peeps! Tooodles!
* smelly you, i want my chupa chups! *
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Here i am, rotting in front of this screen with so much of nothing to do.. Really! And guess what, i got something that i really have to share with you people! Haha..
Now im enjoying my Ben & Jerry's ice cream to the very bits of it... I can't make up my mind on which flavour so i just took these two tub.. Yes, TUBS, all by myself! Haha... A crazy concoction of chocolate ice cream & vanilla ice cream mixed with fudge brownies & gobs of chocolate chips cookie dough AND a collision of chocolate ice cream & vanilla ice cream mixed with heath bar chunks, white chocolatey chunks, peanut butter cups & chocolatey covered almond... Oh my, it was super duper yummy ok!
Sorry young man, you're so far away to enjoy this tasty food with me here! Promise we will have it together one fine day ok! For now, im finishing the second tub and off i go...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Hello people...Im back!
Ok, i know it had been quite "some time" since the last blog i updated... Now, here it goes..
We learnt from our past, studied our mistakes and i guess we tried so hard to hold on to it to save the precious moments, precious relationship.. till we don't even realise that it is actually going to hurt ourselves, our feelings... But overall, life itself is a risk... Whats more, love? So ya...we have got to learn to let go of whatever which is not meant to be ours... The fact is, it hurts...truly hurts! But still, i believe, theres more to come... So, lets live life to the fullest alright.....!
As per you people know, its a brand new year... No new resolutions cause i have yet to accomplish the previous years resolutions...Haha! One thing that i really want you people to know, ive started with a brand new life... A brand new me? Nah...i dont think so cause im still as stubborn, crazy n lazy as before... Its the new atmosphere that im breathing, the old friends that i admit ive neglected, the new friends ive made... And thanks to these people, my life hasn't been such a bore ok! Im loving you people to bits!